Turning 20 wasn't and isn't the nicest point in my life. I wish I could still be six, no worries in the world and having fun. But reality hits me. I'm already 20. I'm hoping I'm wiser, taller (yeah rightttt...=p), fatter (double yeah righttt...), cleverer (?), stronger, musculerer... etc. But, well, nothing comes easy.

Lately, I somehow seem to be more in touch with my inner self but not exactly myself. Comes with the age? I don't know. Don't expect to understand that. HAha.. It's indescribeable. The more things happen, the more I find somethings about me. It's scary, really. And the more things happen, the more I find things about others. Some, remorsely painful because it affects me. It's easy to say, take it to the Lord in prayer, trust Him, Lean on Him... so on and so forth. Honestly, it's easier said than done. But God's grace is always sufficient. I've been scraping through... with lots of cuts and bruises. I do not know how else to carry on, what to do, how to do it. But I know God is faithful and He will guide. I just need more faith.

Note to self : You're 20 Jo, Grow up.