It is inevitable that a person like me thinks about marriage. Come on… let’s face it. I’m turning 20 in five and a half months time. 20!!! Can you believe it?! Argh… it’s so weird telling people that I’m twenty this year when they ask me of my age. It’s…… darn friggin scary! Seriously. And what more, coming to this age, I’m thinking about marriage quite a lot lately. And yes, I do not deny that I’m kinda freaked out about this whole idea of getting married and the idea of a married life. I don’t understand why I’m feeling this way or thinking this way about marriage which according to many people is a wonderful life. Some other people on the other hand faces so so much problems and then end up divorcing… which to me is out of the idea in the area of marriage. Ah… I’m so scared.
I see my parents and they, to me are an example of a successful marriage and people whom I look up to in this area. They’re still so ever loving and sweet and cute with each other even after 25 years of marriage! I do really hope and want my future marriage to be like theirs.
But the anxious wonderings and worries going through my heart and mind are many. Will he still love me or love me less after years of marriage… be it one two years to numerous years till we’re old and mature in age? Will he still hold my hands and hug me and tell me that he loves me even when we’re 60 and growing platinum hair? I love it when I see aged couples hold hands or hug or show love to each other. It’s really….. heart warming =) It puts a smile on my face and in my heart. It in a way, gives hope.

You know, marriage is a one time thing. As my wise Daddy puts it, wedding is a day, marriage is a lifetime. I REALLY don’t want to marry the ‘wrong’ person. Daddy says don’t marry someone who you WANT to change. You don’t marry someone because you want to change that person. He also said that God will provide the man…. Good and sincere and godly for us (speaking to us Tang sisters). I really wonder how will God let me know.

Something very mind boggling indeed is that they say that some people end up marrying someone absolutely out of their criterias. Or… God sends them someone totally off of what they want. Will God actually do that?? But I think even so, probably you can grow to love that person??? Hmmm…. How about match making?? It seems that match made couples rates of divorce is lower than self find couples. Hmmmm……

AHH! I think I’m thinking too much. *slapslapslap!!*

Yes, these are signs of growing up. Mwahahhaahaaaaaa! =p

Yes, I take this issue seriously and frankly, I don’t want to screw up.


On a side note, SMILE!!

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It's raining.
Thunderstorm
Aih... when will it stop?
Everything's so sluggish and slothful today....
Even my one week old laptop.

They say, relationships not about me.
And it's not about you.
Then????
Hmmm... I'm still trying...
... so hard though.

A lot of things we don't understand and can't comprehend.
Are we meant to?
If so, how?? Why so complicated?
(Or is it not??)
If not, then?

Its still raining
........ stil thundering.
I can't un-maze my thoughts.
So frustrating!
I wanna be alone.

..... for now.