School wasn't very good for me today. I'm still suffering the after effects. First, I was groggy, sleepy and supersplendidly tired. Second, I was feeling sick and PMS'ing. Third, it was SO noisy. Fourth, I didn't like what we were and are supposed do to for IS (Integrated Studies). Fifth, we had to choose our own group of 3/4 people. And lastly, one of my girlfriend got left out.

I feel so helpless. I don't like choosing groups. No, wait...... let me rephrase that. I HATE choosing groups on our own. Someone is sure to be left out and I can't do anything. Then I'll feel REALLLLYYYY terrible. I hate choosing sides. Argh! I'll end up feeling like I'm an ignorantselfishegoistic pot.

All this doesn't really say much about what I'm feeling now. There's no way in my verbal capabilities right at this moment that can describe my feelings and emotions and the turmoils that are going through my head and in my heart. I truly truly hate this and I mean it.

I hate collision. I hate confrontations. I hate strained relationships even by the slightest bit. I prefer being neutral most of the time. I still wish Dahlia divided us into groups herself so nothing of this stupid crap would have happened.

Honestly, on most occasions, I would prefer and like working alone. It's my nature. Its my personality. But if I have to work in groups, so be it. I have to change my perspective. After all, two or more brains are better than just one. No guts no glory. No brains, same story. Period.

To You, girl, out there. I'm so sorry if I seemed stupidly ignorant and selfish =( I really am. I didn't and don't mean it. I still love you.